I OWE YOU ALL AN EXPLANATION

Thursday, January 12, 2017

It's been really quite a while. 
Quite a while since I have blogged consistently. Quite a while since I felt the inspiration I had before.
Why? Well there are a handful of reasons why, but the only one i could think of that sums it all up is; life just happened. 

I think I owe you all an explanation. So allow me get a little personal on this post. And for the sake of giving a disclaimer:  Reaching the end of this post will eat a chunk of your time.  So press back while you still can. Just kidding. But  really, it is long.


W H Y ?

The last 2 years were tough in terms of juggling priorities. After graduating from Business, I straight took Interior Design and totally underestimated its difficulty. There would be weeks when I slept for only an hour, sometimes even go straight to class with zero sleep at all. Life at that time was all about plates (how we call drawings in school) and coffee. We did not have breaks, only Christmas, since my school is Quadmester meaning we have 4 full semesters in a year unlike others that only have 2. (I think I explained this one before in one or two of my old blog posts.)

"Burnt-out with no social life" is an understatement. I came to that point that whenever I had free time, I would rather just spend it at home falling asleep on the couch while watching TV or traveling with Patrick somewhere I could shut the outside world down and remain confined in our own little world. I was exhausted and confused. I was feeling very uninspired, I wanted to escape from all the pressure.  I stopped going to events. Stopped returning to emails. Stopped having contact with other people. It was a tough time. It's like watching my dream-blogging-drift away for a much bigger dream that is Interior Design. 



Also independency happened. I have been living alone for the last 4 years with no family to conveniently run to since all of them are in Mindanao; it's just my brother I have here who's lives 4-5 hours away. With being independent I mean doing all things on your own. No more allowances from parents, no helper to do the chores and nobody else to take care of the bills but you. I was thinking if Westerners normally do it as early as 18 then why couldn't I? So every after school I rush home, make food, walk Summer our dog, do the laundry, wash the dishes and then head to Starbucks to study and get back to my homework. On weekends I would usually run errands, do the grocery and then spend as much quality time with Patrick and Summer.
 Juggling time and priorities was a struggle I found difficult to deal with, especially not having your family with you and doing everything on your own. I have always admired those who managed to keep their groove together despite the pressure around them. Sadly going to events and blogging at that time were the least of my priorities :(

But looking back now, it makes me proud of what I have become. I successfully finished 2 degreeshad been living on my own two feet and am contented with everything I have. Being in a happy long-term relationship with the man I love is also an achievement I consider. Albeit tough and pressuring, that time of my life was necessary I must say. Without it, I don't think I would be what I am now. 

With every success comes sacrifices and in my case it was blogging. Am I sad? Yes of course. Who wouldn't be? Talking to you guys through this virtual diary was (and still is) one of the things that make me happy. I missed it so much. And now I am giving it my best to get in touch with you guys and get back to blogging again. Hope you can bear with me.



B E R L I N

After my graduation last November 2015, I flew to Europe with Patrick. We spent the Holidays there and went home to the Philippines as soon as 2016 started. Then after that, I spent half of 2016 traveling, just escaping life which I needed so bad. It was also a reward I gave myself for surviving life and Interior Design. Then by June, I landed my first ever real job as a Jr. Interior Designer. It was a dream come true! But when everything was working just fine, Patrick unfortunately had a knee injury in a game against Singapore. This led him to stop football for sometime and it also led me to resigning from work and and flying to Germany with him as soon as we could. He needed months-worth of treatment and rehab in Berlin until he is able to play football for the Philippines again. 

Why did I quit my dream job for him? Well I wouldn't consider it quitting. It's more of like setting aside my dream first, like pausing it and resuming when everything is right in place again. Now I need to focus on something that is more important and by this I mean supporting the one I love and not leaving his side when he needs me the most. Cheesy? Yes, but true. Besides, jobs will always be there. I'm keeping a positive mind will all this and maybe everything that's happened is a blessing in disguise! Who knows? 
I spent the last 3 months traveling to places in Europe which I had never expected to visit this soon-Cinque Terre being one of it. I remember just jotting down these "dream" places on the fist page of my 2016 planner as an inspiration and motivation to work hard more. Now I have ticked them off my bucket list!  But the most surprising thing was getting engaged in Barcelona. This really I never expected! Talk about life being full of surprises (and blessings in disguise?) :)

And though my dream of being an Interior Designer is currently put on hold, I now have more time to focus on my other dream-blogging. I am writing this personal post all the way from Berlin to reach out to you my dear readers, and I want to take this chance to say THANK YOU to those who followed my blog since 2011. Thank you for not leaving my side and for inspiring me continually with your emails, comments here and on Instagram. I do read them!  
Cheers to more posts and to coming back for good! :)


XO,
Cheys


24 comments:

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    1. To starting again! 😊☺️❤️

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  3. Welcome back!! I am definitely looking forward to reading your blog posts, and of course, congratulations on your engagement! :D<3 (hopefully we can read blogs about the wedding plans hihi)

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    1. Thank you so much! Will try to share my wedding plans as soon as I have started planning it :D

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  4. Welcome back! I admire you for choosing your priorities well. :) Life will surely reward you!

    Things you have no control of are usually the ones that changes you for the better. And I think you are doing very well with your life right now. Looking forward to more of your posts, Cheyser!

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    1. I'd always like to think things happen for a reason :) I am lucky to have readers like you around! Thank you <3

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  5. Always here for you cheys.. From Lookbook to the moon and back! Wish I could be part of wedding suppliers.. hahaha

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    1. Made me laugh! Thank you to the moon and back! <3

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  6. I'm so proud and so happy for you! Yes, I'm a reader since 2011.

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    1. I do remember you Alyanna! :) Thank you for always being with TWR <3

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  7. I'm so happy to have read a new post from you! please know that even when you didn't for the past 2 years, you will always be my favorite blogger.. You've been my inspiration since college and up to this day..I was thrilled to see you in the Ilustrado magazine here in UAE.. I pray that you continue to do what you do best..


    Keep inspiring!

    Xoxo

    Janine

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    1. Such sweet words are these, Janine! Thank you for supporting and for believing in me. May God bless you :)

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  8. You are really an inspiration! Thank you cheyser! ❤️

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    1. No, thank you to you my dear readers! <3

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  9. Awww. What an inspiring story in 2 years! Congratulations! ❤️

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  10. I'm happy I still get to see a glimse of your life through IG since you went on hiatus. I did miss reading your blog though! Glad you're back :)

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    1. It was only IG that I updated a lot over the last months. It was easier and I still was able to get in touch with you guys somehow :) Thank you so much ♥

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  11. my first time to comment ms. cheys. even sa ig di ko madare,you are my inspiration, and pag nakikita kita sa davao gusto ko magpapicture but nahihiya ako. you are my idol,girl crush noon pa. pati si ms. blu

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